Thursday, July 16, 2009
There is a lot going on right now in my life so I am hoping this Blog can be another way for me to be able to express my thoughts and feelings about everything...
I have always thought change was an exciting thing and have enjoyed all the changes in my that have happened so far but I have to admit...I am anxious as heck about the next big change in my life...Getting Married!
Sure...Everyone get's cold feet...but I don't think that is what I have! I have been having dreams...and it seems like in every single one of them I screw something up! I know I need to stop being a perfectionist all the time but it's hard not to be when you have been provided with a life like mine! Even in my dreams I have to be perfect!
It's a lot to live up to...a lot of expectations and a lot of standards not set by me to live up to! It gets old real fast! Now I am supposed to be a wife? How am I going to do well at everything? I know I am not going to be perfect...no one is...but I know I am going to try...(and that's the problem). If I feel like I fail at anything I get depressed because I feel like I have let everyone down (even if that's not the case).
Anyways...that is what is on my mind right now...just a lot of anxiety..So I have started this blog to hopefully help me out! Here's to hoping it helps!
I have always thought change was an exciting thing and have enjoyed all the changes in my that have happened so far but I have to admit...I am anxious as heck about the next big change in my life...Getting Married!
Sure...Everyone get's cold feet...but I don't think that is what I have! I have been having dreams...and it seems like in every single one of them I screw something up! I know I need to stop being a perfectionist all the time but it's hard not to be when you have been provided with a life like mine! Even in my dreams I have to be perfect!
It's a lot to live up to...a lot of expectations and a lot of standards not set by me to live up to! It gets old real fast! Now I am supposed to be a wife? How am I going to do well at everything? I know I am not going to be perfect...no one is...but I know I am going to try...(and that's the problem). If I feel like I fail at anything I get depressed because I feel like I have let everyone down (even if that's not the case).
Anyways...that is what is on my mind right now...just a lot of anxiety..So I have started this blog to hopefully help me out! Here's to hoping it helps!
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